"It's not my fault."
You claim
"I didn't mean to."

Poisonous words
seep into my system,
draining me.

I am dripping
in this feeling
of guilt.
If not with you,
then the blame
Must
Lay
With
Me.

It's my fault,
my fault, my fault
echoing through my mind.

So, I spend years
perfecting myself,
blaming myself.

All the while,
excusing
YOU
and
YOUR
behavior,
Watching YOU

destroy everything
I
build
up.

I try, I try
fixing the unfixable
until I too
am broken.

And the wind
around me
whispers,
"Your fault, your fault.
YOUR Fault."

- Hannah Jo, 2009

Labels: broken, relationships, Your Fault

blissful ignorance
wanted
missed

The knowledge
unable
to save me
to save you

before
we were
unknowingly
injured

currently
we are
broken
shattered,
hurt

soon
we will be
alone,
wandering,
destroyed

because
someone told

a single lie

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Labels: bliss, blissful, broken, hurt, ignorance, lie, single

Once More

Give me your clothes
And I’ll give you mine
We’ll play dress -up
Like when I was eight
And you were nine

You can wear pink frilly frocks
And I’ll dress in your too big band shirts
We’ll laugh and dance
As I lose myself in your scent
Once more

Childhood sweethearts
Together once more
One stolen kiss
Leads to another
And so much more….

Then it’s over
And I’m left
Surrounded by your scent
Wearing your too big t-shirt
Alone on the floor
Used up
like our once favorite toys

A broken china doll
Awaiting her next play date
When she’ll be used
Once more….

Labels: broken, childhood, More, Once, sex, sweethearts, Used